My Baby Did It!!

I am so astonished right now. So astonished by the fact that I had almost the same surgery in December, and didn't feel as good as she feels, less than 24 hours later! She is amazing! I can't believe how good she is being! As I type, she is sitting in a chair blowing bubbles and watching a Barbie movie. She has been so good. The earliest we will go home is tomorrow, she has a lot of things to accomplish before she can go home. We are working on the first one right now! She is sitting up!! Yay for my LaLa girl! Next, no epidural and pain meds by mouth, and solid food! That would be great too! She's gonna be back to her old self in no time! She is doing really good though, and I made it through too! I think I scared myself, just as much as the surgery did. I had all those bad thoughts. I know I am not the only parent who has those thoughts though!! Thank god my mom was there, or I don't think I could have done it!! So, it's back to the bubbles I go. Matt has to go home later, back to work tomorrow it is! Mommy is in full gear, and I get to be with my little girl!! I love you Jacquelyne!!!

Just Thoughts

So, it's Saturday. Saturday Evening to be exact, and I am freaking out. My daughter has surgery on Monday. They scheduled it. I have to be at Children's at 11:45am, and her surgery is at one. I know this is really a routine surgery, but is it okay as a mom to have worries? After all, she is the little girl I have been dreaming about since I was a little girl. And she's my only girl. I'll never have another one. I keep thinking, what if something happens to her, what if I lose my baby girl? I know that I am overreacting, but still, I am SCARED!! I'm supossed to talk to her, and explain to her what is going to happen. I don't know how to tell a three year old that they are going to knock her out, cut her open, and then sew her back up. How do you? I don't know I'm freakin out man!!
On a good note, I went to Lindsay's party today. I don't want to say it was wierd, because it wasn't, it was good, I mean I feel really good, but maybe because we were so little and now we are adults? You know when you have those friends that you don't talk to for like a year and a half, and all of a sudden you are talking again, and it's like things never changed? That's what it felt like, to me at least. I got to see her dad, and Aryka (her sister). It was so nice. I feel so much better. I will never ever in my life have a friend like that. One who knew me when I was just the size of Lala in like 1st grade! We've known each other since we were tiny. It feels so good just to have her back in my life!
Anywho, this will most likely be my last blog until after surgery on Monday, I will definitely fill everyone in as soon as it's over, and she is settled and the crowd has left!!
So until then, please pray for us, as this is something I am so not ready for! Au Revoir!

Attaching, Nervous

So, I have been dogsitting for my grandma for a week today. This dog is amazing! He's so good. He's very protective and such a cuddlebug. I am sure gonna miss him when he goes to my mom's on Sunday! Yesterday was such a good day. Matthew and Jacquelyne both took good naps (something they don't do when Daddy is off, like today), and Peter was pretty good too. It was also Nicci's birthday and I went over there for awhile last night. It's kinda wierd to go over there though, because me and her boyfriend were at one time together. I don't know how to explain it. I think it's just me being wierd though. Anyways, Nicci got to buy her very first bottle last night, and she got some awesome tequila! It was so smooth I didn't even need a chaser. I haven't needed training wheels in awhile, so no chaser was even cooler. I impressed Justin and Tim. And Nicci too. But then again, I really don't drink nothing else, but tequila. I'm kinda like that song 'Ten Rounds with Jose Cuervo" except I don't drink Cuervo anymore. Oh well. It was fun!
My nerves are getting to me. I find out what time we have to be at Children's tomorrow. I am so scared. I think I would be alright if they didn't make me sign that waiver that if something happens I can't sue them for malpractice. I understand though, they do have to cover their bases. I am just really freaked out. I guess because she is so little and she has such a tiny frame, that they will give her too much medicine or something, and then I won't get to bring her home. I just worry way too much!!
But, it will be okay. Matt found out he has to work on Father's day, he's not happy, and neither am I. But we are going to go to Charlie's on Sunday adn BBQ and have a blast. Hopefully it's slow, and he'll get to come home early!!

The B*tch is Psycho!

I don't even know what to say. Last night, Matt tried to talk to his mom. Just because it is his mom, and she totally flipped out. Said that I am the drama queen, when she thrives off of it. I am so sick of the bitch it's not even funny! And she pulls her heart crap on everybody, that we are supossed to be lovign and not hate her because it hurts her heart, and it could kill her. I am so sick of it. I give up. Oh well, we were close, until she decided that her life revolved around myspace! Ugh! So she told Matt that she was done with him too because he was defending him. I love him so much! Poor guy, first he has to deal with the drama queen mom, and then she wants nothing to do with him because of his wife. I feel horrible for him, but I love him too much to let him go!

On a good note, Jacq's surgery is monday and we can't wait. I am so nervous, but at the same time, I am happy because she will be so much better off! And, Peter's last day of school was today, but he hasn't gone for the last 5. He just would rather stay home, and he's been having bad mornings, and if you know Peter, a bad morning leads to a bad day, and a phone call asking me to go and get him. It's just easier to keep him home! His teacher brought us his report card (we live across the street from his school), and the last line on the teacher's comments: "Have a great summer, and good luck in first grade Peter!" I started bawling like a baby! I can't believe he's gonna be in first grade. It seems like just yesterday I held him for the first time!

Baby is on his way to crawling! That first tooth is coming, and it's making him crabbier than ever. He's always crabby when I want to get things done. Matt called and told me to take care of the kids today. He is off tomorrow, and we can get things done then. He's so amazing... I don't know what I would do without him! He just found out he has to work on Father's day, and he's not too happy. It's a slow day today at work, so he might actually get to come home early. That would be nice, I love spending time with him. I love to cuddle on the couch, or when all the kids climb in bed with us and we watch a movie. I love to cuddle with the kids, period!

Lindsay's party is this weekend. I am gonna have to go all by myself (well, with the kids), but I am looking forward to seeing Lindsay, her dad, and her sister. I haven't seen them in so long! It'll be great to see all of them!

Anyways, this has turned out a lot longer than I thought! But, they say good things come in small packages, does that mean that even better things come in large packages, or bigger blog posts???

Just Venting!

I have had the worst past few days! In just 6 days, my daughter has surgery, which I am not looking forward to. Plus, last thursday my mother in law decided to go psycho! I don't get it. My poor husband was not born into a family with a good mother. She's psycho and needs to be committed! Thursday she got all mad at me because I am friends on myspace with someone she doesn't like. Oh well, it's not like I know them or talk to them. It's for an app. (I know kinda lame, but I only play it for my nephew). And she acts like it's the end of the world! I wrote her an told her to get over it, that I was tired of hearing her drama. The woman spends the entire day on Myspace. Okay, she's almost 50 weighs at least 190 pounds, smokes crystal meth, and acts like she is god! She isn't. She's annoying, and has told us numerous times that Myspace is more important than my husband, or my kids. Come on people, shouldn't she grow up? She drives me bananas. Then she writes me all these nasty letters, and my husband and we can't write her back! What the hell is that all about. Now we can't talk to Anthony, my husband's 12 year old brother, because we don't want to hear about myspace? What the fuck is wrong with her?? I am so annoyed and so pissed off, it's not even funny. I don't care that she is on the internet all day, I just want her to understand that we don't want to hear it! But I guess it's whatever. She's completely psycho, and I am tired of her drama. She caused a huge fight between me and my best friends, and then accused me of cheating on my husband twice with his older brother. Okay, or not. She loves to create drama for everyone... I don't get it! Why are there people out there like this!??!?!
And, we are dog sitting. Eddie is adorable, but he is not my cup of tea! He is so cute, and he loves to cuddle, but he is a chihuahua, and they are all together annoying!
I'm just frustrated today and needed to vent! Thank you to all who read this!

Baby Boy

My little man is 5 and a half months old, and when I noticed he wasn't feeling well, I started watching him. After three kids, I don't jump to the doctor's any more! I got the tylenol out, fed him apple juice and water and watched him. Wednesday night he didn't sleep good, but I figured not feeling well and the heat, he would be okay! Well, yesterday he wasn't. He had diarrhea for two days, he was throwing everything back up, and was extremely warm. It was time to call the doctors. I called the doctors, and they said he was dehydrated, and since he was spitting everything up, we needed to go to the ER. I went and got Peter from school, and Matt from work and we were on our way to Children's ER. It seems like it took forever to get there, and Matthew was extremely cranky the entire way! We finally got there, and they ran some tests, and sure enough he was severely dehydrated! And he had a fever of 103.6 when I got there. That wasn't good either. They put an IV in my baby, and took urine through a catheter (which I held him through both) and gave him IV fluids. After the IV was done, they brought him in some formula. He ate 4 ounces! I was so happy, especially since he hadn't been eating! We brought him home, and he slept all night. He was in my bed, but he slept all night! He's got a virus though, and it should pass over time. He got up at 7 this morning, and ate about 2 ounces of formula, played with his new toys from his Grandma, and he is now asleep with this toys in his bouncy chair. This is a happy day! He seems to be feeling better. No fever this morning!! I will update again tonight! =)

Hasta Luego!

I Can't Believe it!

I can't believe it. My baby girl is three today! And today of all days we are given a decision... what kind of surgery? My daughter has bladder reflux on the right side. And after talking to her Urologist today, we found out that she need ssurgery to correct it. I can't believe it. She's only three, but we need to protect her kidneys. I found out that her bladder is ginormous (Is that even a real word?) and the tube that comes down from her kidney to her bladder is not all the way in as it should be. So they have to do surgery. The first option was a scope the goes up her pee tract (the dr. actually said pee tract) and they stick something in the tube. But it only has an 80% success rate. So the second and third options were the same, they actually go in and reinsert the tube into her bladder. They both have a 98% success rate, but one is laproscopy and one is a scar like a c-section. Matt and I discussed and both felt more comfortable with them actually going in like a c-section and fixing it. That way they can actually see what's going on. They actually scheduled her surgery for June 22nd. Less than three weeks before I will be at Children's for a few days. I don't know what to think, what to do. My baby has to have surgery. I pray everyday that Matthew doesn't have any health problems. Peter had a T&A at two years, and the last thing I need is to have another child have a surgery under the age of 4! But they say this will fix her bladder and it's what she needs! So I have to just believe it!! It's telling everybody that is the hard part!

Au Revoir for now!

Surgery?

I hope one day that me and my daughter have the same relationship that me and my mom have. After all, I am pretty lucky, my mom is one of my best friends. I hope one day Jacq thinks the same thing about me! Right now, I know I am hers. She is all cuddled up to me right now. I am so nervous for tomorrow. Tomorrow we find out if they want to do surgery. Surgery on my three year old. Her 3rd birthday and we find out that she might have to have surgery on her kidneys. Kidneys? This is going to be so hard! At least the rest of the day will be fun for her. Nicci is coming over to watch her while I go to the college. I am enjoying the day with my daughter again, and plan to spend lots of time cuddling today (as I am folding laundry). I love her with all my heart, and I will spend every moment with her in the hospital. I love my Lala girl. She's sleeping now, and I can't help but watch. She's so precious!

Maybe I will write again later, but for now, It's all about Lala

Au Revoir!