Just Thoughts

So, it's Saturday. Saturday Evening to be exact, and I am freaking out. My daughter has surgery on Monday. They scheduled it. I have to be at Children's at 11:45am, and her surgery is at one. I know this is really a routine surgery, but is it okay as a mom to have worries? After all, she is the little girl I have been dreaming about since I was a little girl. And she's my only girl. I'll never have another one. I keep thinking, what if something happens to her, what if I lose my baby girl? I know that I am overreacting, but still, I am SCARED!! I'm supossed to talk to her, and explain to her what is going to happen. I don't know how to tell a three year old that they are going to knock her out, cut her open, and then sew her back up. How do you? I don't know I'm freakin out man!!
On a good note, I went to Lindsay's party today. I don't want to say it was wierd, because it wasn't, it was good, I mean I feel really good, but maybe because we were so little and now we are adults? You know when you have those friends that you don't talk to for like a year and a half, and all of a sudden you are talking again, and it's like things never changed? That's what it felt like, to me at least. I got to see her dad, and Aryka (her sister). It was so nice. I feel so much better. I will never ever in my life have a friend like that. One who knew me when I was just the size of Lala in like 1st grade! We've known each other since we were tiny. It feels so good just to have her back in my life!
Anywho, this will most likely be my last blog until after surgery on Monday, I will definitely fill everyone in as soon as it's over, and she is settled and the crowd has left!!
So until then, please pray for us, as this is something I am so not ready for! Au Revoir!