Is It Time?

So, lately, my facebook status and myspace status have been all jumbled and crazy. But I'm beginning to wonder if I am not the one who is crazy. I think I am just all stressed out and am tired of all the bologna. There are only a few people who know what is really going on. And I have been trying to keep it that way. I thank god that I have made it through, and that I know he is there to push me through the rest of the way. All I want to know is if it's time. Time for the big D. I don't know... I guess that's what is troubling me the most. I am tired of all the bullshit, all the drama from him and even parts of his family. I love him, yes, but I don't trust him. After all, don't you need trust for a relationship? I know I do. I wouldn't want to be with someone who didn't trust me. That's just the way I feel. I watch my kids get older and watch us fight and I know that they need me to be stable. Mentally stable, and with him, I don't think I am. I think this is the end, but I'm not sure... Is It Time? I keep asking myself that question over and over again! I don't know, I guess only time will tell, Is he really gonna change this time? Doubt it. You would think that we have been through so much, and that things would reallychange. But he's never changed and I don't know if he ever will! And that's just that!!