So, I've decided to write in purple tonight... I have officially started over. I am filing for divorce, and it is the best thing for me and the kids right now. Things are going to be tough, but I know that I have a great family and good friends when I need them.
So as for friends, I got two of my best friends back! Ryan and I have been friends since right after I graduated from high school almost ten years ago (I can't believe it's been that long), and we always seem to lose touch and get back in touch again. Finally, we have each other. I don't know where it's going but it's fun trying to find out. He's going to come and see me this weekend, and we haven't seen each other in about 6 years so it'll be interesting!!! And Stephanie, my best friend from High School... I got in touch with a few of her cousins, and got her email, and so far, it seems like things will be good. I've missed her so much, her family was like my family, and her mom has always been my 2nd mom. I hope to see her soon!! I never cried so hard as when I found out she had a baby. He's adorable, and I can't wait to meet him! And I've got Lindsay, she's the most treasured friend I have. We've known each other since preschool, and thanks to the wonders of the internet we've found each other. She's amazing. She's always there when I need to talk, and I couldn't ask for a better friend! Thank you Lindsay!!
As for the kids, they are taking things really well. Peter is doing great in school, and for the first time in months, he went to sleep with out a TV on. I think that's exactly what he needed. Jacquelyne is driving me nuts! She's on a major attitude spree, and it's almost like she thinks she is 16, and not 3!! Matthew is almost walking... I wish he would hurry up and start... He keeps climbing in my cupboards and getting stuck because all he can do is crawl. Peter just got his first math test back... 80%!!!! Woo hoo! I am so proud of him!!
As for me, my emotions are scattered. Sometimes I'm happy, then I'm sad, and then I'm mad. I have decided that it is me time, and there is no better time than the present to find out who I truly am and what happened to the old me? I guess we'll just wait and see!
My new goal is to blog at least every other day. It helps get my emotions out, and that's exactly what I need!
To end with a quote...
"In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit." ~Albert Schweitzer
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